Move-in at UVA is a week from tomorrow. Ugh. I'm really not looking forward to it. My first semester at Mason was quite awful (socially, not academically), so I'm basically dreading this first semester at my new school. I'm just not good at making friends anymore. Well...I'm not good at pushing myself to make friends. It's a lot of work for potentially little payoff. I'm prayingbegging hoping that fortune favors me this time and everything just comes together like it seemed to do with my hometown friends and their schools. Pretty pretty please?
Oh and my class schedule is a mess. I'd also love for that to come together sometime soon.
New series, but not an original idea. I just uploaded a bunch of new music to my itunes after raiding the bf's cds. Also now that I'm back at home for a couple of weeks I'll be getting some new music from the family as well. So. I've decided to highlight some of my favorite gems that I've discovered while attempting to listen and learn this new awesome music.
First up, The Dresden Dolls. I made a new car mix cd for my drive home yesterday (so glad I did, that was a nightmare) and I knew I wanted a fast-paced Dresden Dolls song on there because 1) they fit the theme of the cd and 2) I didn't want the whole mix to be music I already knew by heart. I had "Recently Added" playing while I packed and cleaned and this particular song I kept returning to. Then I actually listened to the lyrics and was amazed that Amanda Palmer managed to make rape slightly funny. That is quite an accomplishment.
"Lonesome Organist Rapes Page Turner" by The Dresden Dolls:
Love it for the fast pace, and the added quirks of tone changes and screamy-gasp things. And the lyrics of course, here are samples of my favorites from the song (besides the title of the post, kinda): "I joke about death because it's funny when you're frightened" "I doubt we would be anywhere without your gift for keeping truth and consequence from meeting"
Party Down buzzwords: hilarious, amazing cast, overlooked Freaks and Geeks buzzwords: young, realistic, 80's Firefly buzzwords: space, cowboys, Whedon
So if you haven't seen any of these shows, clearly you're missing out and you must fix that immediately. I mean, c'mon, it's the end of summer. What else are you going to do? Plus, you know that each of these shows don't have many seasons (VMars and AD win with 3 each, 2 for both "PD"s, and 1 for F&G and Firefly), therefore you'll be finished and begging for more in a jiffy.
Hmm next I think I could do a list of overlooked, amazing shows that are close to being canceled... Well that'd be more fun than studying. Seems like all my blog posts have spawned from my procrastination issues. Oh chuckle.
Oy. Once again I've failed to update this thing. A LOT has happened since the last post, in which I was stressing over my final for the first session of summer classes. Now, here I am about to begin stressing over the final of the second (and last) session of my summer class. I think the best way to cover the events between the first final exam and the last final exam is to make a list. Yay lists!
Happenings:
I passed my summer class with a B-! Yeehaw!
I am no longer eligible to be an innocent virgin sacrifice
Due to the above bullet, I contracted an annoying UTI. But I sought meds for it, and they were free, score!
I went home for about a week in between classes and had a grand ol' time that included lots of brownies, purple hair, and busch gardens
One of my besties and her bf (who is the male version of me. don't worry, its not weird. kinda) came to visit me at school and we had the best zoo trip EVAR. Seriously, the animals were strangely active doing random things
I attended Orientation at UVA and fucked up the side of my car in a parking garage
I think that about covers it. I promise I'll try to do more updates. I just need to remember, since its my gorram blog, I'm allowed to do short, random posts (aka half-assed posts) and that will make me feel better about hardly posting personal life-centric things.
I hate studying. I also hate studying when I feel like it's not even going to help my grade. My final exam is on Friday. In one hour it will be "tomorrow." Last year, the summer class's average on it was 58. Failing. Fuck. After my horrendous grade on the third exam (passing, but with a 68), I'm starting to worry that I won't manage a C. I need a C for credit. If I don't get at least a C in this class, I will have wasted my parents money on tuition and housing. Thousands of dollars. This class has been killing me. I have put a lot of effort into this class, many many hours, and it might be all for nothing. Okay, sure, I'll admit I could have put in more effort, but you can usually say that with anything. I know I should be studying, but my motivation is starting to wane. It just feels hopeless at this point. OIFSOGHLEUHF:OEHFUHSFDOUEHFSOGHN I hate whining. I know I must do it a lot on this blog, because this is where I can vent guilt-free. -sigh- Hopefully my mind is just being crazy because it's late and I'm tired. I'm so not looking forward to the huge cram session tomorrow.
Oh boy, and after the final I have to deal with securing my housing for the next session of summer classes and moving all my shit out and driving home. Fuck my cock. Can it just be Saturday already?
Oh my goodness I need to update this thang. Currently I'm still at Mason, taking a summer course to catch up on my major. Joy. It's a lot of work, and I forgot how bad my summer laziness gets, so its not going so hot at the moment. I'm hoping for a B, but right now I think I'm borderline.
I'm starting to get into a gym routine again. Basically, when I have some time in the day, I go. I think I may go right after I finish this up actually. It feels so good to have that as part of my schedule again. Who knows if its actually helping my muscle tone/health/whatever, but it makes me feel like it is so I don't care. I'll be dogsitting next month so I'll find out when I hop on their scale. If I gain weight though I'm definitely going to be telling myself its more heavy muscles haha. Lawd knows that if I do, its not from over-eating because I pretty much just have 2 meals a day. I do have breakfast now but that's just a juice box and a 90cal granola bar. Some snacking on weekends when I'm sitting at my laptop all day with my groceries at my feet, but its all little, light calorie shtuff. Why am I going into this? Pretty dull.
Though my current summer situation is rather dull anyway. Class, lab, lab reports, homework, and boyfriend time. That's basically it. Not much else I can do when my weekly allowance has all gone towards food so far. I'm satisfied though. I miss just chillin with my hometown friends, but those days are mostly over anyway. Jobs and school and life and such. Ew, that's a sad thought to end on..
Once again, I find myself procrastinating a big-ass paper into the wee hours of the night/morning. Here's the skinny, 10 pages critiquing the class due tomorrow by 5pm. However, my mother is coming up to move me out of my dorm some time before 5pm. So really, I need to get this shit done now. Actually I should have had it done days ago. The sad thing is, this paper should be cake. I just can't get myself to do it. What I'm probably going to end up doing is packing my stuff up tonight and writing this paper tomorrow morning. Hopefully I'll have a couple pages done tonight. So far I have one paragraph. I'm a joke. Well maybe I'm past that point. I'm starting to be seriously concerned for myself now. This procrastination problem is getting ridiculous, worse and worse each paper. Great, now I'm sleepy.
I got into UVA! Yeah, I found out a couple weeks ago actually...Clearly I'm not jumping for joy or anything about it. Actually, my feelings are pretty numb. I am going, but I decided to go basically only because I don't want to be able to regret not giving it a shot. So yeah, I'm going to try it out and if I hate it, I'll just transfer back. I think I'm going to stick with Bio major though. Their cognitive science major sounds really interesting, but I don't think that will result with many career opportunities. Whenever I think about that path actually my mind brings up "HR Representative" with a picture of Toby from The Office. No one wants to be Toby.
Things with the new boyfriend have been going pretty well. I still haven't gotten used to calling him "boyfriend" though. It just feels weird haha. Last night I went the farthest I've ever gone with someone. No sex but I'm pretty sure he popped my cherry, cause I'm bleeding, so, duh. He's a really great guy, and I love spending time with him, though he's grated on my nerves more times than I would like. Recently, he's been freaking out about me not telling my parents about him yet. I understand that it really bothers him, and why he finds it so important, but I think he just doesn't understand why I haven't. I'm not close to my parents at all; I never tell them about my personal life. Thankfully he didn't bring it up yesterday and I don't know the next time I'll see him, so hopefully I'll have done it by then. I plan to shoot my mom an email about my move-out and drop it in there, since he wants to meet her on the move-out day, so I hope to get it all over with soon. Not looking forward to it though. Ugh.
One week until I hear about the UVA decision! It's exciting but nerve-racking at the same time. In some ways, it would actually be a small relief if I didn't get in. Mason's grown on me, I know what'd I major in here, I have good friends, and a boyfriend. Everything's just fallen into place this second semester. If I do get in, it's going to be a really hard choice. But at the same time, if I do get in, I'd be crazy not to go. Right?
So I've already met the boy's parents. Today, I'll be seeing them again because his mom invited me to his cousin's birthday party, where I'll meet more of his family. It's a lot to take in. We haven't even been dating for a month yet. Am I over-reacting? Should I not be so nervous about his family and going too fast? It's hard for me to judge since I've never been in this situation before...grr.
Wow. A LOT has happened since my last post. So...umm...yeahhhh I kind of have a boy now. I KNOW. It's major. I met him through my roommate and apparently he liked me right away. They even deviously plotted for us to run into each other so that we could talk more. Wait that sounds creepy, but it wasn't. Now we've been dating for about 2 weeks. Not sure if we have the boyfriend/girlfriend label yet, and its not "facebook official," but I think we'll get there. He's kind of intimidating though. Or 'it' is..as in the relationship is. He's admitted that he's a slight sex addict. Clearly I am way less experienced than him. Also, that's resulted in things moving pretty fast. I haven't done anything new yet, but we've done everything that I've experienced before. Then I remember, "Damn, its only been 2 weeks. I should slow down." I feel bad about slowing down, because its tough for him, I feel like I'm constantly teasing him. There's a lot more I can say, but I feel bad enough for letting this much out here, plus I'm too tired to go into it. But, yay! exciting!
In other news, I didn't get the summer Smithsonian internship. I don't let myself think about it too much because then I know I'll get depressed. The boy came at just the right time to distract me actually... Yeah, so now I get to try and find a summer job at home and drive hours to see him during the break. Oh and also, if I go to UVA, I'd be in a long distance relationship. Which I believe are destined to fail. Not good. He's aware of these thoughts though.
Let's end it here. I'll try and update more frequently...promise.
