Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Whiz-Bang New Years Genius

Wow I feel like winter break is flying out the window. But I guess I'm still stuck on high school break-time. It doesn't help that I always forget how close Christmas is to New Years though.

Anyway, since my winter break activities are finally picking up, I think that sense of being rushed just kicks in. So said winter break activities now include a mini New Years Eve party. I'm so excited for this because usually, as in always, my New Years is quite depressing (being a now-18 year old virgin with no future plans after college). Buuuut now I might be able to drink away those thoughts while having a blast with my hometown friends. Fuck yes, bring it.

And of course I start my NMNH internship whiz-bang in the new year. I'm really excited but also pretty nervous. It's going to be a lot of work on a time schedule (basically 9-5) that I'm not used to. I think it'll be pretty chill though since there wasn't even an application and the attire is supposedly casual (score!).

I still need to start my UVA transfer application. It's starting to hang over my head like a thunder cloud. I plan to just sit down and do it within the next couple of days. I just hope I can stick to that simple plan. Blergh.

And now for something completely different, Say Anything's new album is the shit.
"I love life. But life has a boyfriend." Genius.

That is all.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Remarried Gangsta

Mmmmm, winter break, you're lovely. I haven't done much with you yet though, have I?

I guess the big Christmas hullabaloo really starts today though. Family from Florida is driving in today and family from Maryland is driving in either tonight or tomorrow morning. Christmas is the one time of year I truly enjoy being with my family. I know that sounds awful, but I think its that way with a lot of people and holidays.

Tomorrow though...*sigh* Tomorrow my grandfather is getting remarried. Of course I support him and his happiness, and the woman is lovely, but I just can't support the act/idea. I don't feel its necessary that he should marry her. Why can't they just be together. Why the ceremony? I guess its the old-fashionedness in them but still, c'mon. I mean, I understand why they're doing it, I just don't agree with their reasoning. But I'll just slap on that fake smile I've perfected over the years while I cry on the inside, practically forced to think of my deceased grandmother all day. (Yeah that sentence needs some restructuring, but you can suck it)

Now I've lost my train of thought.

Oh I really need to start my UVA Transfer App. I guess I'm putting it off because I'm not looking forward to all that work, that I just did last year, that goes into these applications. There's too much little stuff to worry about in those things.
But on the plus side, STRAIGHT A'S BITCHESSSS. Yup, somehow I managed to pull off an A in Astronomy (after having failed one of the four exams) and an A- in Research. Fuck yessss this will look good for that transfer application. This is the first time I've achieved straight A's in like five years too.
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Just a minor complication in relation to the natural kind

My winter break starts this Thursday after my French final. This realization is intoxicating. I can hardly focus on studying. Which is quite aggravating since I need to study my ass off for Astronomy. I just like to keep my mind off that issue though...

I saw The Features in concert the other night. They were AMAZING. Also, the opening band, Mean Creek, was really great. I love finding new awesome bands. Anyway, if you don't know The Features:


You're welcome.


I feel like I'm the only person not too stressed about finals. I think I just lucked out on my workload this semester. Only one class really kept me up at night. Calc turned out to be easy and my French class is below my level. So that brings me to next semester. I'm a little worried. My schedule is more stretched out thanks to a Bio lab and 7pm class. Ugh. I also took a gander at the textbooks I'd be ordering soon and it looks like fetal pigs will no longer be limited to my 10th grade biology nightmares. Ha, no actually I managed to avoid dissecting the pig in that class, I just had to be present and write shit down. Hopefully I'll be able to worm may way out of holding a scalpel again. I'm a pussy who loves the movie Babe, what can ya do?

I guess I should try and study now. I've already wasted the past hour and twenty since lunch.
Frickin astronomy.

Monday, December 7, 2009

NMNH Internship

Big news! I got an internship at the Smithsonian National Museum of Natural History to complete over my winter break! So in January I'll come back up to DC and stay with at my Aunts house, metro-ing over each morning. I was so excited I actually emailed my family about it. My dad's response was really nice, but then he mentioned how my Grandmother would be so proud of me.

Instant tears.

She died over a year ago and, clearly, it still affects me. I loved her so much and she has influenced who I am in such a large amount. I didn't even realize that until she passed. Basically, she instilled my love of movies. Anyone who knows me, knows that's BIG.
And I know my dad is right. She would have been ecstatic. She loved DC and everything history. I hope that, wherever her soul is, she can still see how my life is going and be my guardian angel.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Rocky December Astronomy

So ya know how I've been melancholic about my college social life? Well, it's looking up. I've made a good friend on my floor and, through her, I've met more people. Not necessarily new friends, but it's a good sign of things to come. Plus this weekend has been/will be very college-y. Last night I went out with her to a club, tonight we're going to Rocky Horror, and today & tomorrow I'm revising a 12 page paper and studying for a big calc test.

December's going to be a good month I believe.

Except the part where I have to study my ass off for my astronomy final because I got a 56 on an exam I forgot about when I got back from Turkey Break. Yeah, bombed an exam that counts as 22.5% of my grade. I played around with some hypothetical grading and it looks like I can still manage a B for the semester. I hope.
I don't want to think about this situation too much or it will make me very upset. I could have easily had an A in that class. But that mindset is why I put this class on the backburner and totally forgot about the exam. Oh well, I've learned my lesson I guess...

P.S. It's snowing right now! And sticking! Looks like I'm finally back to enjoying snow again!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Aah, procrastination. We meet again.

Thanksgiving break was rather lovely. I managed to avoid my family for the majority and see my much-missed friends. Now I'm back at school, back to my ol' procrastinating ways, obviously. I'm pretty ready for this semester to be over. Actually, I'm ready for this school year to be over. It's sad, but true. By the end of the school year I will know which college to settle into, and that will be a huge relief. Even if I do stay at GMU, next year will provide another "fresh start" that will allow me to put myself out there for reals this time around. Then maybe my procrastination time will be filled with socializing rather than useless laptop time. Ah well, I shouldn't be too antsy.

Hmm my mind's wandering. Apparently I'm still recovering from the late nights of break. Sooo tired.


New favorite time-waster (besides TFLN, MLIA, and FML):
Twitter
No! WAIT! Listen, I promise it's not that bad. I do NOT use Twitter. I simply read it. Neil Patrick Harris got one, and it's quite amusing, so I then I clicked around. Other notable twitterers- Kevin Smith, Michael Ian Black, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Kristen Bell

Monday, November 23, 2009

Baby Got JGL and Thanksgiving Break

Tomorrow, after my french test, Thanksgiving break finally begins.
For some reason, this past week, I've been ridiculously excited for the drive down. I've just been really craving some driving with the music cranked and singing(and rapping) along like the ridiculous white girl that I am. I even made a new car mix that has such gems as Single Ladies by Beyonce, Shots by LMFAO, My Dick by Mickey Avalon, and Sir Mix-A-Lot's Baby Got Back. Although a couple of hours ago a floormate asked for a ride to a nearby town, so I might not be able to fully rock out with my cock out as intended. We'll see. If the traffic's bad, she might just have to endure while I belt "Suckin' on my titties like you wanted me! callin me! All the time like blondie check out my chrissy behind it's fine all of the time!" Yeah. Peaches. Awesome.

Talked to CC briefly today. Now he definitely knows that I'm chill, open for pleasant conversation or whatever. I don't explain this well, but I understand what I mean so =P
This will be the last of talking about him for a while. I hope. Honestly, I'm getting tired of writing about it. But I feel that I need to update on the situation. I know, I don't make sense. The end.

On another note, Joseph Gordon-Levitt hosted SNL this weekend. Overall, I wasn't totally impressed. JGL was amazing, of course, but I feel like SNL didn't use him as much as they should have. Unused potential. However, his opening number was quite magnificent:



Also, the "Mellow Time" skit was hilarious. Andy Samberg as Jack Johnson, Bill Hader as Dave Matthews, JGL as Jason Mraz (spot-on impression!), and Dave Matthews as (modern) Ozzy. Golden!

Mmmm can't wait to see my friends and doggie over the next few days! Thanksgiving probably won't be great, just family and some soldiers that we're hosting, but I'm fine with some forced family-time. Otherwise, I'll probably just be oot and aboot with the loves. Clubbing on Friday! Can't wait, I haven't been clubbing in forever and I miss it. And for the times that I am actually home, I'll be able to catch up on Supernatural on the much-missed DVR.
This week is going to be good.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Magnified Fail

I really don't want to write about this since it shouldn't be a big deal. But I need somewhere to vent since none of my friends are online and my roommate is gone.
Texted CC. Simple question and I received the most simple answer possible.
Now I feel sick.
I'm ridiculous.
I guess I was hoping a lot more than I realized that he would strike up a conversation.
Well, I was very cordial and cheery in my texts so at least he knows that I'm chill with everything, and he can approach me.

Oh and hanging out with that guy never happened. I went to the mall with a floormate last night and she said he'd been hitting on her big time too. So once I got back I really did not feel like dealing with him. Roomie thought of an excellent excuse for me so that I wouldn't have to go. Now, tonight, he wants help with math. Ha. Doubtful. But thats my intention, talk math and if he tries anything I'm just going to lay it all out for him.

Can it just be Tuesday already? I really need some fun with the old friends. It'll be like therapy I guess.
It's not just the boy thats messed me up though, it's my failure at a college social life overall. I think he's just magnified this for me actually.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Shouldn't dwell on the past...

College is really not going as planned.
I thought making friends would be cake, my weekends would fill up, I'd actually make it past the tipsy-level of drunkeness, and I'd be completely happy.
Not at all.
I'm stuck on Friday night again, with plans that I don't even want. I can't wait for Tuesday when I drive home for Thanksgiving break. I never thought I'd want to go home as much as I do. I don't miss my family, well only my dog, I miss my friends. But still. I thought having new friends would out-weigh missing my old friends.
I think another reason I'm so ticked about CC blowing me off (still haven't heard from him since) is because he provided a window into the college life I desired. Friends and fun every night.
Oh, and those plans I don't want? This guy has been flirting with me for the past couple of weeks, but I'm just really not into it. He's not ugly or a jerk or anything, I'm just not feeling it. But I figure some plans are better than no plans, and he invited me to hang out (since his roommate left for break already and he'll be lonely). Maybe this time I'll make it perfectly clear that I'm not going to hook up with him.

Side note, I'm going to text CC soon with some sort of convo starter, just so I can see if he's completely avoiding me. I'm sick of trying to catch him on facebook chat. He's either NEVER on or he's blocked me. Which I doubt because that's extreme, I have done nothing to prompt it. Unless he's just totally insecure with what happened between us. Let's hope not. I feel like everything could be chill between us, still be friends, and not be awkward. But not talking to me doesn't help. I'm hoping he's waiting for me to talk to him, though I hiiiiighly doubt that.
Wow, long side note. Clearly I'm still hung up on what happened. It's just all so aggravating.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Pathetic. Friday. Facebook. Giant. Elmo.

I'm pathetic.
No word from CC since he sent that disappointing lil text. Should I be worried? Not necessarily. But I do it anyway.

It's friday. So far my plans have been to facebook stalk facebook chat, hoping CC logs on so that I can lightly establish contact. In between this I have dinner plans with mom, then picking up the car for the weekend and going to giant to grab some groceries. The end.

Did I mention that I'm pathetic?


Cheer up:

That helps a little.. :)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Oh NOT another boy.

Well fuck my cock.
CC's called it off. He texts me a couple hours after I give him a handjob (first time, otherwise we'd just made out and over-the-clothes stuff) saying that he feels weird taking our "breaks" (called that cause basically each time we'd been tired from the day) without being in a relationship, and that he isn't looking for one. (Could you follow that between all the parentheses?)
Like, I don't know what my brain should do with this.
Right now, I'm just really worried that now he'll never ask to hang out or even acknowledge me if we run into each other. I really don't want to be in that whoa-awkward-lets-never-talk-again funk. He's a great guy and I'd be fine with just friends for now. I really wish we'd talked face to face so I'd get a better explanation.
I had texted back to him that I was fine with it but I thought he was a cool person so I'd like to still hang out but just like..normal. He never texted back. Fuck. Yeah so who knows how this will go.

So after that shitstorm of a text and consequent brain fuckery I had to write a 10 page paper last night. Which ended up keeping me up til.. hmm... now. Yeah, I haven't slept in 24 hours. I just got back from class, handing the paper in, where CC should've been too. But I didn't see him cause he sits somewhere in the back. Plus I didn't want to seek him out to talk after a 9am class and no sleep.

Now I'm lying in bed with the lights off, writing this entry because I know that if I try to sleep I'm just going to be thinking about him and this awkward situation.
Dude, why'd you have to text that to me?! Fuck.

This all makes me sad. I really like(d?) him. But specifically as a person, not necessarily as a crush/potential bf/whatever.
I don't know now if I should approach him (not necessarily in person) or if I should wait for him to approach me. I'll wait for now..but for how long?

Fuck.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Oh another boy.

Oh boy. Oooooh boy. Um, so my last couple of days have been...eventful.
Cut to Thursday. Lunchtime. Roomie and I can't find a seat, surprise surprise, and I spot a floormate eating with a guy thats in one of my classes. Solution. We eat, chat, s'all good.
Cut to Thursday night-ish. Roomie's away and I'm alone waiting for Jeopardy and big ass block of TV to start, so I go to grab food. Hey! It's that guy again! Let's call him CC. We sit and talk and really hit it off. Awesome, a new friend. I end up missing Jeopardy and Bones but we head back to my room to hang out and catch The Office. CC leaves in the middle to do rehearsal and frat shit but we make plans to watch Anchorman later that night.
Cut to later that night. Watching Anchorman on his laptop, on his bed. He starts getting close...we end up moving around to the long-ways side of the bed and end up cuddling. Smooth moves buddy. Movie ends. Then we make out. Yeeeep. More cuddling, trying to sleep, fail, cuddling/makeout who knows anymore. I'm not even going to get into how one of his roommates was still there and that whole scene haha.
I end up leaving at 6:40something in the morning because I couldn't sleep and he had a test in a few hours that I didn't want to distract him even more from.
Cut to lunchtime again. Hey! How was your test? Want to get lunch? Cool. Hey! Let's go back to your dorm and watch a movie again, Day of the Dead this time. Hey! Let's stop the movie and "rest" cause we're tired. Whoops, makeout some more. And let's add some over-the-jeans 2nd base this time too.
Then I ended up leaving around 5:30 because I had planned to meet TRAIN for dinner in DC! Look at me be a playa.

Dinner was nice. It was a little awkward since we hadn't seen each other in a while. But eventually it was great convo again. No smooth moves like CC back there so I think its a just-friends thing. Which is fine with me now, considering the very very recent developments.

Now, it's Saturday and I've been procrastinating a 10-page paper due on Monday ALL DAY. I really think I have a problem with procrastination.
Anyway, haven't talked to CC all day, but of course I keep thinking about him. Thursday night he mentioned a small frat party for tonight and he semi-invited me to it, but I haven't heard anything, obviously. As the night progresses, I'm just dying for a text about it so that we can chill and so I can get away from this fucking paper with a valid reason.
But the real root of the matter is that he told me he doesn't want a relationship, they're too complicated, just want to have fun. Okay...(damn)...but that's fine. He also voluntarily told me that he's a virgin, but has bascially done everything else under the sun. Sooo I told him I was much more of a virgin and never had a boyfriend, but lied a little and implied I've made out some.
I don't know how far I'm going to let this "friends with benefits" thing go on for. He's totally sweet and repeated quite a few times that I should stop him if I was uncomfortable. And I did a couple of times, but thats because, biologically, this isn't a good week for certain activities. Plus, this progressed pretty fast. We've been friends for basically two days. Oh boy.
Ugh. So many thoughts.
Another concern, this can't be exclusive. He could be hooking up with plenty of other people too for all I know. I can't get mad at that, and I can't ask, but it's going to be really hard for me to not get my emotions wrapped up. He's just so fucking nice and cute. Fuck.
For now, I'm going to slowly (or at least try to) let it progress. But eventually I'll probably have to draw the line and be like, I'll go farther if you agree to a relationship because, with how we do this now, I can't completely trust you.

Wow, long post. But this is kind of a big deal for me. Remember my ultra virgin discussion.
I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm awoefh;bv;xuha;oiraewd.

Yay now I can get back to procrastinating my paper...

Monday, November 2, 2009

Procrastination says "You're my bitch"

November is going to be one hell of a month. Not as in yay!busy!exciting!, but as in figuratively literally hell. Assignments keep piling up and, especially, the due dates of my research paper keep creeping closer and closer. Why didn't I pick a more simple topic? I envy my hallmate who chose the debate about spanking. Simple- one side says spanking's good, one side says spanking's bad. The end.
Let me just stop myself from continuing that rant on my paper. It's pointless.

Is it Christmas time yet?

Oh so I already broke my water binge...But only by one drink! I wasn't on campus for once, I was at a Five Guys, and had already bought a regular drink cup. I only got Nestea though, so at least I continued not consuming soda.
I'm not too upset by this single slip-up. I shall continue the water-fest.

Now I'm just sitting here, trying to think of something else to write about. Clearly I have much much much more important things to do. Just thinking about it makes my heart rate spike.
BLECH. I must s t o p.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

All Water All The Time

I believe it was two days ago that I decided to adjust my eating habits. Well, really drinking habits, but non-alcoholic kind of drinking. Basically, all water all the time. I'd already drastically changed my drinking habits when I moved to college without even trying. They only have coke products here so all I've been drinking has been either water, orange hi-c, fruit punch hi-c, and lemonade. Amazingly, I eliminated soda from my diet without making the conscious decision to do so.

The decision to take it the next step occurred to me pretty randomly.
My skin has been frustratingly not-clear for what feels like the past forever. I use some neutrogena scrub or whatever, but the results aren't very drastic. I'm hoping that an end to drinking flavored sugar water with each meal will help clear it up a bit. I'm not expecting a cure-all or anything, though wouldn't it be nice?
Another motivator is a friend. A year or two ago she completely stopped drinking soda and she dropped I believe it was 14 pounds. Sure, for all I know she drank five cans a day, but it is a nice thought.

I don't know how long I will keep this plan up. Honestly, I don't like drinking water. Sometimes it's refreshing after a long, hot day but otherwise, it's not appealing to me. Also, I think it tastes gross without ice. I don't understand how that works, I just know that's how I taste it. Ha
Wish me luck?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

7 Reasons Why NPH is Awesome

I'm feeling a bit down in the dumps, so I figured I could post about something that would subsequently put me in a good mood. At least, that's the plan.

7 Reasons Why Neil Patrick Harris is Awesome


  • The voice! Not only does the lovely NPH have an interesting and identifiable voice, but he can also sing me into a musical frenzy. His musical genius can be seen in the wonderful Dr. Horrible, Sesame Street (as the Shoe Fairy), and Batman (the cartoon, as the Music[?] Meister). Really I could make each of these their own bullets, which I probably should, but...
  • Barney Stinson. The loveable, hilarious womanizer on CBS's How I Met Your Mother could only be so perfectly pulled-off by NPH. Now, suit up!
  • The Old Spice commercials. You might've missed them; sadly, they didn't play them as much as I would've liked. NPH is the only man who's made me actually enjoy cologne in any capacity.
  • Best.cameo.ever. If you haven't seen Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle, go rent it. Now. He plays "himself." *chuckle* If you've seen it, you'll understand.
  • Dog-lover. Anyone gets automatic points in my book if they love animals, especially doggies. (Segway!)....
  • He owns his Doogie. (See what I did there? Doggie...Doogie. Yes I'm a dork, I'm aware) NPH doesn't get upset when people bring up his roots incessantly (ex: see Gary Coleman). Evidence: his recent stint on SNL and the blogging shout-out on HIMYM
  • He owns his gay. NPH is not shy about being a proud homosexual. Well, really, I respect anyone who's completely proud of who they are. Also, he advocates gay rights. Have you seen Prop 8: The Musical? Beauty. In my opinion, the entire gay community should adopt Neil Patrick Harris as their figurehead.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Oh the wonders of facebook...

So, remember said amazing weekend from a couple of posts ago?
Well that particular amazingness began on my train ride to NJ. This guy, hereafter to be called "Train," sat down next to me and we started with some little chit-chat which grew into talking for the entire 3-hour train ride. Sadly, I got off the stop before him and then he didn't ask for my number/give his number/mention facebooking/etc, and I thought that was it and I would just have this nice memory of meeting a great guy on the train.
Fast forward to today, sitting in my most pointless class, bringing up facebook, and, surprise! I have a message from Train. I have no idea how he found me on facebook, I don't remember giving him my full name. Though I guess it is possible since my first name is slightly unique and I told him I'm at GMU.
So, now I have his number and I'm awaiting his reply to my reply.
At the very least, I'm predicting we'll be good friends. But I'm hesitant if it should progress more than that... He's somewhat significantly older. I know he's in grad school now to become a lawyer, and I'm only a freshman undergrad. Maybe 5-6 year difference? Hopefully no more than that.
Also, drumroll...
I represent the ultimate definition of a virgin:
To avoid embarrassment, I count my first kiss from second grade because otherwise, I've only been kissed briefly in a spin-the-bottle.
I've never been on a real "date."
Basically, the farthest I've ever experienced romantically is that I've been asked out a couple of times. Literally only a couple though. And the guys were gross.
Why do I bring this up?
I highly doubt Train is even close to being a virgin. Would I want all these little firsts to be with him? I may be getting ahead of myself, but, being an 18-year-old virgin, I think about my predicament A LOT. Basically, I'll just have to see how things go...

On another note, well not completely, it's connected, anyway, Tina Fey is now my new hero. On Letterman a couple of days ago it was brought up that she was a virgin until she was 24. 24! That makes me feel so much better. She's pretty! funny! smart! And she was a virgin until 24. And clearly not by some religious choice (she emphasized, "I couldn't give it away!").

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Why don't you sit right down and make me smile

Currently, this is my most favorite music video ever. Can you get any cuter than this?



They make my heart feel like its going to explode from joy.


Degree thoughts:
I truly love my archaeology class. Should I pursue this field? A major in anthropology would include my interests in history, art history, and archaeology. Plus it could lead to some very interesting careers.
Environmental Science. Also this would lead to a variety of interesting careers for some great organizations (hello WWF, EPA).
It's just nice to know specific fields to explore.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Party over here

This past weekend was truly amazing.
Seeing old friends and their new lives makes me want to just drop everything and join them. It kind of showed me how my life right now is basically empty. My friends are spread out all over the place. No job. No new friends. I have no motivations, no ambitions. My only ambition is to transfer, but transfer to do what? There's still no overall ambition there.
It seems that I don't have a life.
All I want to do right now is blow off my homework, blow off getting the car to pick up my roommate, and just sit here to get lost in some other world through a tv show.


I feel like deep down I'm a slacker at heart, and that somehow I've been pushed into the world of over-achievers and it just makes me fucking miserable.

All I really want in life is what one of my friends, who I just visited this weekend, has. An easy life with the one I love. I won't go into the boring details but essentially, they have the love of each other and all the lovely small pleasures around them. I could really go on and on about how wonderful they are, that's why its hard not to phrase that awkwardly, if that makes sense. ha
I guess this could count as an ambition...But there's no guarantee of reaching it.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Old-Fashioned Bomb

Well. The past week has actually been quite eventful. Surprise surprise.
The day after tomorrow I'm going to New Jersey. Say whaat!?
Yep, visiting my bestie in the old middle school stomping ground. Leaving bright and early and coming back bright and early Monday. I'm actually really really really excited, I haven't seen her in over a year and both our lives have changed drastically since then. Plus, for some reason, we hardly talked in that time. That doesn't really trouble me though, our friendship is strong.

And now for something completely different, I got a giant confusing-mixed-feelings shit bomb dropped on me not even an hour ago.
My grandfather proposed to his new girlfriend. My grandmother hasn't even been dead for 2 years. He's been dating her for a handful of months. A proposal should be totally surprising, n'est-ce pas?
On one hand, I'm glad he's happy. Honestly, my grandmother was usually a total bitch to him, and when she was around, it really hurt to see them together fighting all the time. I still love her though, we were very close. I would definitely name her as the person who got me utterly hooked on movies. From chick flicks to Hitchcock, thats how we roll...ed. Oh right, so he's happy now and I truly love that.
On the other hand... I said they haven't known each other long right? Did I also mention how she lives thousands of miles away. They don't even live together! My dad called it "old-fashioned." Which didn't click at first because I though old-fashioned would apply to living together before marrying, not the other way around. Theeeen it clicked; yeah, grandpa's old, '50's ideals.
Blergh.
I'm conflicted. The only thing I can really be sure of is that I think its too early in their relationship. And that I still miss my grandmother, ahelluvalot.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Shit Friday

It's not even 9pm on Friday night and I am lying in my dorm, considering sleep. I feel like shit right now because I hear people out in the hall talking about how they're about to go out.
I've been here for over a month now and I've made no real friends besides my roommate. I remind myself constantly about the positive aspects of this, but during moments like these I feel like total, socially-awkward shit.
The good thing about my current position, which I keep trying to hammer in my head, is that if I am accepted to UVA for next year, it won't be hard to break all my newly formed friendships at GMU, since there aren't any. Also, not having a booming social life means I'll have no dilemmas between studying or partying.
....And yet I still feel like shit. I think that pretty much sums it up, everything else I consider writing just seems redundant.


Oh and *editors note: Jim and Pam didn't get married on The Office last night. It's next week. For some reason they started promoting the event 2 weeks ahead. Grr.



Now it's past 9...by 4 minutes.....What to do now?

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Yay! Pictures!

I've been debating in my mind about what my second post should be about. Right now, I'm tired and I want to nap, again, and its only 3:20pm. So, I settled on cheerful, uplifting post.

Here's some awesomeness:


(btw Jim&Pam are finally marrying on The Office tonight! YAY)





<3

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The beginning

Hello world.
New anonymous insignificant blog here.
Ok, the basics:
I set up this blog as a release for myself. I've had one on lj since about middle school but I've pretty much stopped using it because I had some friends who also had one and would read it. Now, I don't want that possibility. All I want is to put down my thoughts, whatever and whenever, and send it out into the void. I find it strange, as I think many bloggers do, that writing a blog is so therapeutic. What is appealing about complete strangers reading your journal? I still can't answer that, yet here I am.

Although I want to keep things pretty anonymous, I will leak a few facts. Right now I'm a college freshmen at George Mason University and over the next few months I will be attempting to transfer to the University of Virginia. I was waitlisted earlier this year, much to my shock and disappointment, but I still continue to pursue this college that doesn't want me. I expect to be writing a lot about this process, so I'm just going to give in now about labeling these universities.

Fun facts about myself:
I'm a movie and tv whore. I was completely distraught this summer when I realized while packing for college that not all my dvds would fit into the 256-slot case that I had bought for them.
I adore comedy. It's pretty easy to make me laugh, but I still cringe at any atrocious attempts (ex: Date Movie, Epic Movie, etc).
I completely 100% support gay rights, though I'm not gay. Along those same lines, I'm fairly liberal.
Hmm, one more thing for now...I really miss KFC famous bowls; there is no KFC on campus. *sad face*
The rest of me you can deduce from my posts. I hope to post somewhat regularly although I have a penchant for starting things and not following through, unfortunately. I don't plan to make this one of them though.

So my username is morethanthis, its would I could come up with on the spot. Honestly, I've been thinking of usernames for a while, but then I realized that there's no way that I can boil my being down to just one phrase, it's pointless. Ergo, morethanthis. Of course, "this" also refers to the blog, because no matter how many posts I make, my true, solid, human self is more than this blog as well.